Got My Own Chanel.

Got My Own Chanel.

Saturday, April 17, 2010

I don't.

Modelling bridal wear. Makes you think.
Is a wedding really just the same as a runway show? You have a straight line to walk, an audience to impress, and a nervous smile that shakes.
Do the people watching you realise a wedding is the start of a marriage or just a day to look pretty and sip Moet?
Does anybody really remember that a marriage isn't a transaction, signed sealed and delivered by a wedding?
Does all romance go out the window?
Are we just a society who like the look but don't care for the work?

I can't help but think, as I am painted with pink lips, taught how to hold a boquet appropriately, plastered with hairspray, and told I am not smiling enough as I totter down the runway, even in the love drenched audience watching me, that perhaps they are more in love with the dress. Or the ring. The cake, or the car. The honeymoon, or whatever sparkles.

Friday, April 2, 2010

14 definites. 1 wonder.

I've learned that, being yourself is only not enough for those who don't love you.
I've learned that, though I have green eyes I am not a green eyed monster.
I've learned that, without trust a world doesn't spin.
I've learned that, everybody has insecurities. It is not wise to play on them.
I've learned that, people who take your confidence as arrogance never knew you enough.
I've learned that, if you are a black sheep you shouldn't worry about not following the white flock.
I've learned that, at least if others are talking about you, then one less person has to suffer the cruelty of their words.
I've learned that, if it's raining your hair is going to go curly, which was more interesting than straight anyway.
I've learned that, peoples' reactions aren't a reflection of you, rather themselves.
I've learned that, just as one door closes, another opens. But something may keep the one behind you slightly ajar.
I've learned that, those who don't believe in love haven't yet felt.
I've learned that, there is something about needs. Sometimes when you get them met, you don't need them anymore.
I've learned that, every dog has his day.
I've learned that, there is always the exception to the rule. I live by this.
I've learned that, some things never need to be questioned and the day you start may be the day you lose.
I've learned that, when relationships end, cynicism is an easy camping ground. But not a necessary stop.
I've learned that, destroying the evidence doesn't have a hope in hell of fading the memories.
But i've wondered; if you have mastered the forgiveness and not the forgetness can you ever truly forgive?